Monday, February 25, 2013

Monday updates...

It is still in the hoop, so no photo...
But I am working on one of the Long Dog Patterns, not the Escher.
It was started before, but I wanted to change so much of it, and didn't remember what I had changed before, so I just started stitching anyway.  I think my theory was to stitch the parts I wanted to keep, and then add or change the rest.  But I really don't remember.  Mind like a steel sieve.

What am I watching and buying for dvds? 
This week I am watching - Real Crimes on Youtube.  Watching episodes one right after the other is just too much violence, but the stories are so interesting that I want to watch them all.  Watching how cctv comes into play is very interesting since they don't have that here. 
As for what I am buying?  Old stuff mostly.  It started out that I wanted the Only Fools and Horses, and Goodnight Sweetheart, One Foot in the Grave and Hustle sets.  Then because the Downton series was so cheap, it has doubled in price now - I pick those too.  Then because the cost was half price to buy the UK version, I got Six Feet Under, and Queer as Folk.  All stuff that I have seen before, but wanted a good set, or wanted the version with extras.  So added Chef, and Dinnerladies, Thin Blue Line, Cold Feet, Coupling, Psychoville, Little Britain, League of Gentlemen, The Office, New version of Upstairs Downstairs, Mulberry, Ashes to Ashes, Black Books, After You've Gone, Lost In Austen, Sinchronicity, Bob & Rose, Jonathan Creek, and Mad Dogs.
I picked up a few that I knew nothing about - In Loving Memory, and Worst Week of My Life sets.  Youtube has been great because I could watch an episode to see if I was interested or not.  Sometimes the humor just does not translate for me.  Started watching Benidorm - love Steve Pemberton - and knew nothing about the series.  Watched Mad Dogs and loved that enough to order it, and just waiting for series 3.
Had just finished watching Cracker - both versions.  Also picked up Red Dwarf, and original Upstairs Downstairs sets to watch again.  And Life on Mars - the UK version was so good, the US version ends completely differently. 
Just placed an order again - but I am running out of ideas.  My tastes in tv are unusual for a woman, and so is my sense of humor.  I have seen a few of the Frost series, and like the actor, but it was more my mom's style, not mine.  There is the stuff that is on tv here all the time - Are you being served? and Keeping Up Appearances, As Time Goes By, Last of the Summer Wine, Yes Minister.  Not into Dr Who, but loved Red Dwarf.  Love Dexter and Breaking Bad and Sopranos.  Really enjoyed watching Goodnight Sweetheart from beginning to end.  Loved seeing the Downton butler show up in the Cracker series as the bad guy...  so good.  Loved seeing the Life On Mars guy in Cracker too.
So I am still trying to find a few things to watch thru Youtube, like most of Benidorm, and Real Crimes, but it is pretty hit and miss, because I don't know what to look for.  If you have a suggestion... tell me...
I am undecided about In Loving Memory - Porridge seemed predictable - Fun at the Funeral Parlour seems odd... liked Butterflies, liked A Fine Romance...  Bought Lost in Austen again - because the UK version put back in the 'Downtown' song that Amanda sings. 
Would have bought Manchild, but that is not around.  Did buy the US series of Caroline in the City - the set says the episodes were out of order, so I ordered the seasons.  Much cheaper to buy from there than here. 
But have seen prices there double on some things since January 1, so I was glad to get what I did.
There were some things that the library could provide - loved the Long Way Round, and Long Way Down series.  Have seen All Creatures series, and Ballykissangel.  Have Monarch of the Glen, but have not watched it yet. Lark Rise to Candleford might be good to watch all at once, but I was getting it hit and miss.
I am sure there are more that I have - but that has been what has been on my tv lately.  More than enough.
With all of that, I really don't miss cable tv. 
And it is all good to stitch while watching.

Looking forward to the next cross stitch show.  Already a few things I am considering ordering.  Haven't ordered any cross stitch for nearly a year.  Last thing I got was the Long Dog book of patterns.  I went through Canada to get it, but it is a pretty good deal through the UK too.

So the credit card had almost a month off.  But my binge buying of video feels over.  Easy to say when I ordered just last week. 

On the other front - my friend with the husband in the care center.  They put him on hospice this week.
Talked to her this morning, and I doubt he will survive the week.  They have been married well over 60 years.  She is not feeling well, and the stress is dragging her down more also.  She knows I will do anything she asks of me, and that is all I have to give her.  She is ready to let him go, but saying it, and doing it are very different things.  And I know because of the alzheimers', she feels she lost him long ago.  Because of the medication or dying process he appears to be having some flashbacks to his time during the war, which she is finding disturbing also.  I am sure on some level she would have to feel that she is losing him over and over again...

Sunday, February 17, 2013

Page 15 Completed

Page 15 completed of 35...
It seems to take me about a week to complete a page.
I am enjoying watching my UK dvds, so sitting for long stitching sessions is very easy.

The second order that was mailed January 4 never did show up, so I did the 'chat' thing, and they resent the order.  This time with tracking numbers.  They sent it really quick - like they sent it Monday, and I got it Wednesday.  I am still waiting on one more, it was sent Jan 22 and still has not shown up.  Out of nine boxes, two have gone missing - and the third was nearly returned.

I have been pretty good about slowing down my spending.  Groceries and bills and only $35 for gasoline so far this year.  So I am staying home.  The day just flies by.

Going to look into my stitching stash - would like a break from this, or a week of this and a week of something else...  I am really glad to be back stitching again.


Sunday, February 10, 2013

Completed page 14

Finished page 14 of 35....
No photo.
It was one of those moments when I realized that I have just stitched for a week, and it was 3am, and I had just finished stitching something that I just hated stitching.
I thought I was ready to just toss it into the trash and start something different.
I was sick of stitching those miserable shading stripes.  And the rest of the pattern is full of MORE shading stripes... and I'm not even half way done...
So I could stop and iron it and photograph it, or just stick it back in the hoop and start another page.
I picked another page, stuck it back in the hoop, and stitched more.

On some level, stitching is stitching.  On another level, I miss stitching Long Dog patterns... maybe I am just sick of no color.  Maybe three pages of Escher is my breaking point after not stitching for months.
I don't know.  Once I was stitching again - I was fine.  I stitched for another hour, and didn't consider tossing it.  Maybe it was just general frustration.

On the frustration level, I don't really have anything to complain about.
Finally got my rebates from the dishwasher -
Asked Amazon UK to resend me the missing box of dvds.  They will, and were very nice about it.
The house is a mess - but that has become normal... 

I did have an odd thing happen.  I sort of met an alternate version of myself.
Did you ever wonder what you would be like if you got to change some of the things you would like to change about yourself???  Or what exactly others say they see about you, but you don't understand what they mean?  I met that better version of me.
The nice thing was that I liked her.  I understood right away that meeting her was a lesson for me.  I wasn't sure what the lesson was going to be.  I thought at first she was just going to be a new friend for me because we either had the thing in common or were complete opposites.  That's when I got the lesson.

She was me -
She was the version that wasn't overweight.  She was the version that was divorced three times, but had children.  She had lots of siblings.  She was still dating.  She had friends that she would go with to the wine tastings, and listen to the local bar bands...  She had just moved to the new ranch house.

She was all the things I've wondered about in my life if only this or that was different.
And there was also that little bit of confusion, and this needing to please - lack of confidence I could see in her that I know some men have said they see in me.  I can't see it in myself, and have often wondered what exactly they meant, but I could see it in her, and I understood right away, that is what men see in me, or maybe other women see in me.  I got it - because I could finally understand it.  Actually, it is something that I don't remember seeing in other women.  But I understood people see that in me too.

Like I said, it was all a little odd, and took place over about 30 minutes.
In the end I understood better what other people see in me.  I understood that I liked her, but that I was still much happier being myself - even as messed up as things sometimes are or seem.  I was much happier at the end of the day with myself and being alone.  The thought of going to the wine tasting, and listening to the local bar bands, and dating men that still don't have a clue about women was sort of horrifying to think about.
That I was really happy on my own.  Maybe she left out meeting feeling the same way about her own life.  Glad she was social, glad she was not overweight, glad she had children and grand children, glad to still be dating.  I'll never know, but I would be fine if she felt that way.

And that is a really nice life lesson to learn about yourself.  Once you have met that other version, where the other option was taken, you can stop wondering about - what if...
It is not better or worse - it is just different.  And if you can walk away realizing you are happy in your own skin, and not wondering anymore, it was a great life lesson.  One that I probably needed at this point in my life.

Saturday, February 2, 2013

Finally a stitching photo.

Pages twelve and thirteen complete.  Of 35 pages... Escher's Relativity.
The two that I complete were the first two of the three pages on that top row.
Last time I took a photo was last April.
Still a very long way to go, but it is relaxing.  Never know which page I will do next.
That missing page in the corner seems like it is fussy with lots of numbers.
Seven pages across five rows...

The package has arrived

Got the package in the mail the next day.
Called the my postal substation to explain - and he said, there were 1000 packages that had been mis-canned.  Or miss canned - or some technical mail term that keeps the rest of the world guessing.
So he went to check, and a few minutes later told me it would be delivered later that day, and it was.

I waited with my hat and boots on for two hours - and ran out when I heard the mail truck -
Went running out still flinging my coat on as I am bounding down the front steps,
( this is not a pleasant site ), in my sweatpants and t-shirt.

I get to the mailbox just as the carrier is scanning the package...
And I realize I don't think I have ever seen this woman carrier before.
She wasn't the other woman that I had as a carrier before the snow.  She wasn't the guy that I had seen the day before.  So there is no point in asking this woman - Hey, why are you returning my packages and saying I have moved???

It wasn't much bigger than a book - why would you not just scan it, and leave it in the mailbox?
I understand not leaving a package on a snow covered step with no sign of anybody around, but if it fits in the box, and you are delivering mail, why would you not leave it???  Again, not point in asking...

When I was on the phone, I explained that I might live next to the FOR SALE sign, and I might not clean my driveway the day it snows, but what exactly has to happen for them to write - moved and left no forwarding address...
He said leaving the mail in the mailbox for 30 days would do it.  He said they would usually take it back, and still hold it for another two weeks after that.

I've never gone more than four days without walking to the mailbox.  I don't get it.  And I have not done that recently... 

So maybe I am just randomly part of this 1000 package error.  He said he had been answering phone calls all morning, and it was something they either did, or some system problem.

What I have concluded - Men were involved, nobody will every really know what happened...

But they brought me the package that said on the tracking that they were sending it back to the seller.
I am still expecting two more packages, and I would not bet money on them either way.

But I am planning on bounding out to the mailbox like some goofy happy St. Bernard dog.
Just enough to make a memorable impression that somebody does live here, and that I have not moved.
Seeing me bounding out to the mailbox would be a sight most people would never forget...

And probably kind of scary...

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Finished the page I was cross stitching - no photo today.  I was mid page when I picked up stitching again.  It was a tough page, and so I moved over to the next new page, and complete it yesterday.  I then started to just finish the incomplete middle page, and hope to have it done yet today or tomorrow.
Photo next time...